Monday, November 13, 2006

Forbidden Dreams

One of the most exciting things for me in my universe is dreaming and the way we dream. Sometimes I wake up in the morning and just wonder what happened in my mind last night that I dreamed of this or that. The structure of dreams is so strange and creative that I may say that my most creative "me" is the me who is dreaming.

I just want to write about my last night's fabulous dream. Before going on, I should say that no re-presentation of a dream can be an exact replicate of what happened. I am just telling a story which I am not sure about its accuracy, but I know that it has the same kinds of elements as my dream. Anyway ...

I was thinking about discovering new archaeological site in the world. I believed that there were still many undiscovered places on the earth. You just need to find them and then enjoy your discovering. Suddenly, I thought about using Google Map. You can easily see a lost village or an old shrine by Google map from a satellite view. Though the problem is that finding a place you don't know its whereabouts is not easy. However, my experience of using Google map shows me that it is just a matter of finding a black dot in a big clean place, a dot in an ocean, or a desert. I became fascinated by the idea of writing a small program to fetch a small map from Google map and then finds small points in the map. That was my idea! I let M. knew. I cannot remember his reaction, though I guess he was not so excited.

In the next scene, I was in the map. It was Iran. I could go top and down, left and right, and the unbelievable point is that I could move in the whole country as easy as I drift the map by my mouse. I could hide behind Zagrous, or go to Pars, or go to this place or the other. I cannot remember what happened then, but I remember that someone (maybe a family member) wanted me to marry a girl. I cannot remember the girl, or what happened then, but now I feel that they was thinking about a rural girl, someone from an immigrating tribe (what is the word for "iil"). I tried to avoid it, or at least, I was acting like a shy boy (so this was the reason I was hiding behing Zagrous mountaint!).

After that, I remember that my advisor and his girl added to this marrying-girl complicated story. I cannot remember exactly what happened. He invited me to his home? maybe! I saw his daughter and I liked her? Possible! He suggested me to become his daughter's boyfriend? I think so! Were I looking over her? I don't know! I think the right answer (the thing that I dreamed last night) is that all these things happened together. I become fascinated by the fact that my advisor has a young daughter (between 15-17), and I was considering trying to become her friend, his father was encouraging, but I was a bit reluctant because I thought that making an intimate relationship with an advisor's daughter is not the best thing I can do, and also she was underage too!

It is good to know that my advisor's daughter, as far as I know, is a bit younger that what I thought in my dream (I think in reality she is around 12-13), and I haven't seen her for more than a few seconds, and at that time, only her back was toward me. So actually I just saw her shoulder and something like that. She was not so small though (Based on what I saw, I might estimate her age as 17-18). I should say that I did not fall in love with her at that moment. Also I am not going to wait her grow up before I try becoming her boyfriend. I am not going to do anything with her anyway!
However, the irony of my life is that unbelievable things always happen to me! Maybe someday I marry her! :P

P.S: Dear World! For God's sake, at least let me look at her before changing my life!

Thursday, November 09, 2006

Trapped

So late,
time passed
I'm here,
Cannot move!